“YOU OWE YOUR DREAMS YOUR COURAGE”: ON COLLECTIVE AMNESIA & OTHER STORIES.

Earlier this year I tweeted:

“You owe your dreams your courage.”

I don’t think I fully understood what that meant when I posted it. I am still having bits of revelations as the journey of Collective Amnesia continues.

I was going to put up a simple blog post reflecting on my 20-day book tour but I realise that the journey of this book has been so challenging, beautiful and intense, so I wanted to go back a bit to when it all started.

This is the account of the journey from my perspective, my publisher who has been a huge part of this journey has his own accounts; some similar, possibly some crazier than mine. He spent 3 months navigating the Post Office and distributors and tons of admin trying to get this book out there. For those who do not know what my publisher has done these past 3 months, let me just say that it’s been LIIIIT!

If there is anything Nick and I have in common is that we are both one-man shows. I wish I could say that there is a full on admin or PR staff sitting in some cute corner office somewhere assisting us with all the work we do, but there isn’t.

Anyway, here is a very informal and long reflection on the #CollectiveAmnesia journy and national tour.

I will date this, so no one gets lost (me especially)

2 JANUARY 2017

Back from Deesemba vacation and realising “SHIIIT!” I have a manuscript to finish:

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30 JANUARY 2017

Pre-Orders and folks responding with all of the warmth in the world.

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31 JANUARY 2017

9/10 Drafts Later, my editor Genna Gardini and I hand in the final manuscript.

21 FEBRUARY 2017

Shoot the cover and photographic visual series with Andy Mkosi

6 MARCH 2017

Collective Amnesia Goes to print.

14 MARCH 2017

Beloveds gather at my house to help me welcome my babies before I send them off.

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15 MARCH

Off to Kenya to deliver 60 copies.

16 MARCH

Reading from Collective Amnesia for the FIRST TIME.

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Thanks to Zukiswa Wanner, for this gift. Around February, Zukiswa Wanner asked if it would be possible to get a few copies printed early to take with me to Kenya. Collective Amnesia was only scheduled for release in SA in April. But uHlanga made the early print done. Zukiswa made sure the Kenyans were the first to hold this baby with me.

Those who know me will know that I had been dreaming of going to Nairobi for a long time, and to have the first time going be for a Collaboration with Zukiswa and Victor Ehikhamenor, was such a gift.

Ok. Enough, cause I will never move past this date.

22 MARCH 2017

My 24th Birthday.

I am feeling overwhelmed that the best gift I could have given myself was a FREAKEN BOOK!!!!, Was to archive this life and its experiences into something tangible, something that I could share with the world.

This day was so important for me. For the longest time I had dreamt of being published, and I always thought I would publish my first anthology when I turned 30 or post 30. I had this whole plan: Do my masters in Creative Writing, and then publish.  And here I was turning 24 and holding my first anthology.

I felt spoilt by the universe. I felt grateful to Uhlanga Press and Nick Mulgrew for taking a chance on my young voice and taking a chance on a “performance poet”

27 MARCH 2017

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Shot the Collective Amnesia Visual Series with photographer/videographer Jarryd Kleinhans.

click on links below to view:

Chapter 1: Inherited Memory

Chapter 2: Buried Memory

Chapter 3: Postmemory

30 MARCH-3 APRIL 2017

I cannot remember the exact date or day I decided that I was going to go on a book-tour or the day that I decided that such a thing was even possible.

But I suspect it was around this time. I decided that I would take the book around the country. I don’t remember my publisher flinching either. He was just like “ok, a tour…yes lets!” What a dream. I tell you. To be in partnership with folks who are willing to jump with you and affirm your aspirations. We all need partnership like that. They are  imperative.

4 APRIL 2017

I meet up with a friend, stressed and not knowing if I will manage to self-fund the tour. In the conversation, the friend asks me, “Beybs, why are supposedly celebrated and loved and yet here you are struggling and stressed…Ask for help from all these so-called fans and believers of your work.

So I sat at the Alexander Bar around 9 pm (while my friends were watching a show in the theatre) and sent over 50 emails asking for funding and sponsorship for the tour.

Over the course of two weeks, individuals and organizations and spaces responded with such generosity and kindness.

This night was such a huge lesson in not being ashamed or afraid to ask for help, for what you need, for support etc.

With every email, I sent I had to tell myself I was worthy of my own self-belief and the belief and endorsement from backers.

Thank you to all the #CollectiveAmnesiaTour sponsors mentioned at the end of this post.

 

MID-APRIL

Collective Amnesia is officially released and Launched in South Africa

 

CAPE TOWN

11 APRIL 2017 – UCT

Hosted by The African Gender Institute

In conversation with Toni Stuart, Faye Kabali-Kagwa, Siphokazi Jonas, Chaired by Greer Valley

 

photos//Andy Mkosi

 

12 APRIL 2017-DISTRICT SIX HOMECOMING CENTRE

In conversation with Carol Mashigo

 

Photos//Neo Baepi

 

21 APRIL 2017 –G.U.S GALLERY, STELLENBOSCH

Hosted by Inzync Poetry Sessions

In conversation Uhuru Phalafala

 

Photos//Jarryd Kleinhans

 

21 APRIL 2017

I announce the postponement of the Durban and Grahamstown launches.

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Because glitches are a thing.

Because doing something for the first time sometimes means that you will realize that things of this magnitude require time and rigorous planning. I also had to take the time to rest before diving into the next thing.

Self-care first.

Self-care first.

Became the reoccurring lesson.

24 APRIL 2017

I make an open call for other cities to join the collective Amnesia route.

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I can’t remember what possessed this open call.

some responses:

 

 

25 APRIL 2017

My publisher announces Collective Amnesia’s 2nd Print. I didn’t expect that it would come so early. Or even come at all.

 

MAY

THE COLLECTIVE AMNESIA NATIONAL TOUR OFFICIALLY STARTS

 

5 MAY 2017

Collective Amnesia is officially a prescribed text at the University of Stellenbosch and will be taught by the incredible Dr Uhuru Phalafala

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I lost my shit this day. I was overcome by so much gratitude for the work done by Black lectures in institutions of higher learning, for the work and fight of my generation. For their persistence in changing the conversation in institutions of higher learning. I know and understand that Collective Amnesia exists or can exist in universities like Stellenbosch and UCT because of movements lime #RhodesMustFall & #Feesmustfall

11 MAY 2017

8 dates & venues are announced

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16 MAY 2017

1 more launch in Cape Town before embarking on the tour.

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Hosted by Grounding Sessions

 

20 MAY 2017

I find out that Collective Amnesia is part of the 2nd year English and Gender Studies lecture series at UCT.

Thanks to Khwezi Mkhize & Gabeba Baderoon

21 MAY 2017

An 8 launch-tour turns into a 13 launch -tour. I am both nervous and excited about the expansion.

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Because I still don’t know what the hell I am doing. haha.

Literally, I am improvising as I go.

 

27 May 2017 

The National Tour “Starts”

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GAUTENG

Day 1

27 MAY 2017 –PLAT40RM

Hosted by Word n Sound

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photos//Cheeky Natives

 

Day 2

28 MAY 2017- VAAL

Hosted by African Flavour Books & Genesis Poetry Spoken Word Movement

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Day 3

29 MAY 2017-JHB, BRIDGE BOOKS

An intimate reading and conversation hosted by Cheeky Natives

Link to podcast 

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Day 4

30 MAY 2017-JHB, MARKET THEATRE

Hosted by The Star and Word N Sound

in conversation with Lebo Mashile & Milisuthando Bongela.

(one of the the most profound evenings and conversations of my life.)

 

 

Day 5

31 MAY 2017- PRETORIA

Hosted by Speak out Loud, Hear My Voice, National Library of South Africa, Poetoria & The Swedish Embassy.

 

This 15-year-old boy stood by my side and wrote me a poem while I signed. This was the highlight of my evening.

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Day 6

1 JUNE 2017 -KIMBERLY

Hosted by The Sol Plaatje University

In conversation with Gertrude Fester

 

Photos//Carey Moraladi

 

Day 7

2 JUNE 2017-PIETRMARITZBURG

Hosted by Tree of Poetry Spoken word movement

In conversation with Pumelela Nqelenga

 

 

Day 8

3 JUNE 2017-DURBAN

Hosted by Izimbongi Zesimanje

 

photos//Goodeye

 

Day 9/10

4-5 JUNE 2017

Rest and travel days

I couldn’t tell which was worse, launching every single night, or having a break inbetween for rest and travel.

Day 11

6 JUNE 2017-PORT ELIZABETH

Hosted by NMMU

This felt like one epic homecoming.

We had to switch venues mid-launch because the first venue was too small. I have never felt so loved. The spirit of my Grandfather who was a preacher, who loved words, who believed in the power of the word, was alive on this day.

 

 

 Day 12

7 JUNE 2017

Travel day

 

Day 13

8 JUNE 2017 –NELSPRUIT

Hosted by Words in my Mouth Poetry Slam

 

Photos//umavidabxl

 

Day 14

9 JUNE 2017

Travel day

 

Day 15

10 JUNE 2017-POLOKWANE

Hosted by Slam Eporium 

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I had never performed or launched at a car wash before, so this was a glorious first. It asked of me to think about spoken word performance spaces differently.

 

Day 16-18

11-13 JUNE 2017

Travel and Rest days

 

12 JUNE  2017

This comes in from my publisher

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Guys apparently the average novel/book in SA sells between 600-1000 copies in its lifetime. I read an article about it a week before this came in. So when this arrived I was like “say whaaaaaat?”

I am still processing what it means to sell 2000 copies of a poetry book in South Africa.

 

Day 19

14 JUNE 2017-GRAHAMSTOWN

Hosted by The National English Literary Museum

 

At this launch, I also find out that Collective Amnesia is being taught and used as material at Rhodes University.

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The youngest audience member, Lonwabo, got up, took the mic and asked me:

“Why are you not afraid to get up there and speak?”

Thixo! I have never been so dumbfounded in my life.

Photos//Khuthala Adam

 

Day 20-Last Day of Tour

15 JUNE 2017-KING WILLIAMS TOWN

Hosted by The Steve Biko Centre

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The last 3 days of the tour were incredibly difficult. I didn’t know I had that kind of stamina until I was doing it.

I was on the road with my mom for 20 days. I was tired, inspired and taking it one day at a time really.

There is so much to reflect on. Things I would have done differently. Lessons learnt etc.

It’s been an exact year since being approached by uHlanga to publish my first anthology. Last year June had someone said that this would be the kind of post I’d be putting up on my blog, I would not have believed them. I am grateful spoken word communities around the country who have made Spoken Word trendy and alive in South Africa.

I did not pull this off alone. Thank you to all the hosts, venues, backers, reviewers, media people, photographers who captured this journey and more importantlythank you to my mom.

Hosts:

African Gender Institute | District 6 Homecoming Centre | G.U.S Gallery & Valeri Geselev | Word N Sound | The Palt40rm | Genesis Poetry | African Flavor Books | Cheeky Natives |Speak Out Loud |Hear My Voice | National Library of South Africa | Sol Plaatje University & Carina Truyts | Tree of Poetry & Bessie Head Library | Izimbongi Zesimanje/Nowadays Poets | NMMU & Zolisa Marawu | Words in my Mouth Poery Slam | Slam Eporium | National English Literary Museum | Steve Biko Centre | Inzync Poetry Sessions | Grounding Sessions

Media that made this work visible:

Between 10 & 5 | HuffingtonPost SA | Mail & Guardian | Africa in Dialogue | Marie Claire | AfriPop Magazine | Johannesburg Review of Books | City Press | Kaya FM | Power Fm

 THANK YOU BACKERS:

The Distell Foundation | Kingsmead Book Fair | The African Gender Institute | District Six Homecoming Centre | Embassy of Sweden | Sol Plaatje University | The Steve Biko Centre | Azafi Omoluabi-Ogosi | Yewande Omotoso | Dr Alexandra Ross | Elelwani Netshifhire | Gaamangwe Mogami | Tamara Guhrs |Mandla Mbothwe | Lesego Rampolokeng | Mike Van Graan | Dr Lunette Warren |Andrew Van Der Vlies | Victor Ehikhamenor | Callum Tilbury |Lucy Graham | Jon Keevy |Toni Stuart | Fran Michel | Javier Perez | Nomfy Meyer

Last but most definitely not least.

So grateful to my Mother who did this thing with me. Who put her work and her life on pause to take me around the country to share this work.

I am a blessed daughter because of her.

I am a blessed poet and artist because of all the people mentioned in this post. And all the people who filled venues.

I feel incredibly grateful to all the 2000 humans who hold a copy of Collective Amnesia.

Let’s Make it 10 000 copies, just because we can.

Thousand times, Thank YOU!!!!!!!

Poetry Lives.

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7 thoughts on ““YOU OWE YOUR DREAMS YOUR COURAGE”: ON COLLECTIVE AMNESIA & OTHER STORIES.

  1. This is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. A very moving ‘account’ of the Collective Amnesia dream, especially PE reflections. With love,A

  2. I don’t know how I came across you on Twitter. And how I’m sitting here reading this post. But Lord am I thankful. This is truth. This is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us! I submitted my manuscript just last month and we’re still at the editing stage! There’s so much I’ve picked up from reading this which I believe will be so useful along the way. Thank you thank you!

  3. Thank you so much, Koleka. For you. For Poetry. For sharing yourSelf with us. Thank you, dearly.

    Some of us were only able to follow the tour via the net and we felt as if we were there in flesh. Thank you. (And, what was your response to Lonwabo?😂😂)

    Love. Peace. And Poetry.

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